The Dangerous Lengths We’ll Go To to Appease Feeling Purposeless

Sometimes, if always, anything is better than feeling despair.

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I was never fully aware of myself and my actions, nor had I been taught to learn self-awareness in order to see if I had picked up any bad habits. The truth is that the most dangerous habits develop over time. They are not a ‘single event’ moment that triggers us. It’s usually a slow build up that eventually has a breaking point.

Feeling purposeless is perhaps the worst feeling a person can have. To me it’s the equivalent of losing hope, losing the reason to keep moving forward. And many of us are currently on that hopelessness boat, having no idea where we are headed. The reason I mentioned self-awareness previously is because due to lack of it, the majority of us don’t even know that we are on that boat. And the first step to correct our course is to learn to become self-aware so we’re able to identify the habits that we think are ‘normal’ and truly call them out for what they are. They are accepted by society but they actually are just appeasers so that we don’t have to confront ourselves and the mistakes we may have made in the past that have taken us to a place where we didn’t want to be.

In my life I had a couple of ‘distractions’ that kept me going. One was using going out…